I've just realised something.

When I met The Fox, he wasn't like he is now - he was far less confident. Far more unsure in bigger groups, not as outspoken etc.

I have been pleased that I may have had some influence on him, to see him change into someone far more self-assured.

But that's when it hit me.

OK, he has grown his confidence. But he's done that by sapping mine.

I'm drained.