OK - so, nothing at all has changed since last time I wrote, but my head was killing me.......I knew things were wrong and couldn't see where and couldn't see how to stop myself feeling like I was doing something I shouldn't.

This doesn't make any sense at all at the moment cos I simply can't explain what I'm feeling.

The culmniation of it all though I sthat I have decided to stop seeing The Fox, whihc he can't understand, and of course that's not helped by me not being able to explain it, and I'm fighting with myself about trying to drop things with Oink before they get weirder.

As nothing has ever happened or been said with Oink, this is thing that makes the least sense........I guess i feel that I'm fucking around with The Fox's life and I don't want to give myself the opportunity to do that with someone else.

Oh God I feel odd.

I'm going to have to write properly another time.