I have decided that this is what I am. A little-used old-fashioned 'proper' English word.

For those who don't know what it means, here is what I am feeling (according to dictionary.com!)

1. Showing a brooding ill humor or silent resentment; morose or sulky.

2. Gloomy or somber in tone, color, or portent: sullen, gray skies.

3. Sluggish; slow: the sullen current of a canal.

I'm not so sure about the canal bit, but the rest of it seems about right for me at the moment.

'Sullen' - what a cool word. I think I may stick it in with my other favourite words which noone uses nearly enough these days. how often do you get the cahnce to say 'gusset', 'doily' or (my favourite word ever) 'bunting'?????

Anyway - I feel happier now that I have a word for it! oh, and yeah, sorry Jules, I realise that I might have soon changed my mind if my flat actually DID blow up!!!!